So just as I suspected, we won by the odd one goal.
And made it awkward for ourselves, by all accounts.
I say that because I deliberately stopped watching the game before half time.
No, I wasn’t on a promise, as has been suggested, although it’s a nice thought. Fortunately, I don’t need promises anyway, but I digress.
It’s just that we are awful to watch and my limit for watching total mediocrity seems to have been reached, at least temporarily.
I really don’t think “crisis point” is too exaggerated in the way I feel.
Before you say I’ve flipped my lid, let’s just look at things.
I’ve read around the net for many views of today’s game and they vary from “we were lucky”, to “we were easily the better side”.
I suspect the truth is somewhat nearer the middle.
But consider then that we have a striker who looks very likely to hit 25 or more goals this season, in Tammy Abraham.
While there would always be someone to knock the ball in, if he wasn’t here, what if they couldn’t (and probably wouldn’t)?
Of course, there is the argument that Abraham misses far too many chances and it’s one I subscribe to; but the point is he looks likely to be our highest goalscorer in donkey’s years and we’re still only mid-table.
Where would we be without him?
If you take Abraham and McGinn out of our side, what do we have?
I’d suggest it’s nothing.
I also consider the side that beat Boro and Derby.
Why has the same team that beat them so easily, dropped off in the way it has?
And it’s this that worries me.
We’re a massive club.
There’s no doubt about that and we’ve made marquee signings to prove it, in the likes of Ross McCormack. He should have been brilliant for us, but proved a total disaster.
He’s just the first name in a long list of players that spring to mind. Bolasie was seen as another “class” signing, but has proved a failure.
And then, we apparently have brilliant kids coming through, yet even Dean Smith, who excels at bringing them through, seemingly won’t touch them.
And then I think I see the problem.
We’re a club that’s too big to be seen as rubbish.
But in reality, it’s what our team is.
And I struggle to get my head around that.
“Top” players don’t work for us, because we always seem to sign them too late.
And we can’t risk kids, because we expect to be watching “top” players.
I’ve never rated Leeds as an equivalent club to us, overall.
But they have big support and the expectation is high.
I think I’m beginning to see what their problem was.
They’d had massive glory in the 70’s, which I remember, but couldn’t maintain it.
Hence they’ve seriously struggled since, the DOL period which nearly bankrupted them, apart.
I think we’re at a similar stage to them, albeit many years later.
Ok, we beat an Ipswich side who I believe hadn’t scored away since mid November, 2-1.
And of course, many of us are happy, myself included.
But if this is as good as it gets, in us being happy in beating a poor, bottom of the table side at home, I don’t know if I can be arsed to worry about it anymore.
That said, I’m going to the Sheffield game with the Grandkids.
There’s always the future, after all.
But I can’t say I’m looking forward to it.
It just seems more obligatory, than anything.